Shh...you are kicking butt here! So proud of all of your accomplishments this year. You sound like you are really in such a good place for your recovery work to flourish.
I have always been fairly independent. Perhaps an anomoly amongst my peers here. I did have some separation issues as a young child...the normal stuff, I think. As an adult, I actually enjoy being single with my girls. I don't feel I have to have a partner, however it would be nice to not be afraid to have a partner.
As far as my therapist is concerned, I have been very, very lucky. I have been seeing her since 1996. Back in the day she took insurance, now she is mostly self pay. She works with me at a greatly reduced fee. I can see her as often as I like. I am usually able to afford two to three times a month.
I do think about what will happen when she retires. She is at retirement age now, although I don't see her as the type to retire at a traditional age. She doesn't need the money, I don't think...she really loves what she does. I do dread the thought of this happening. I have shared so much with her. I hope to finish my therapy before she retires, as to not have to start over with someone new.
This week I will see her on Wednesday. As I stated in a previous post, I plan to email her my thoughts and fears on the whole abuse issue. I want to really get this out, and start doing the work. I want to get moving with my life. Part of this push is because I do want to work on this with her, and no one else (in terms of face to face).