Thank you for sharing your journey. I know many people can relate to your challenges.
Progress can seem slow, but it's progress nonetheless. Plus, you are not moving into the darkest places where some people go. This is a major win when we are looking at eating disorders.
I'm glad you appreciate the visual of watching the waves. A more complete image is, "Be the ocean, not the waves."
So you be the ocean and watch, feel, observe the waves. You are the wholeness. Waves occur in different sizes and duration depending short term stimulus. You, the ocean, with all your deeps and currents, are the constant.