You are going through a tough period. It's painful, I know.
A big challenge we all confront at some point in our lives is holding love during separation.
Sometimes separation is temporary. Sometimes it's long and sometimes it's permanent. But the love doesn't have to be affected by separation. Love remains.
You love your therapist. She loves you. I don't doubt that. The thought of her absence is painful. But, absence is not abuse. Feeling pain may trigger old associations, feelings and thoughts stemming from your sexual abuse. Please don't get them mixed up with the genuine emotional connection you have with your therapist.
Knowing that termination is coming and knowing you have a good stretch of time to work on it with her is one of the greatest experiences that can happen between patient and therapist.