I relate to a lot of things on the list. One thing that happens to me often is that dread escalates into anxiety. Sometimes I wonder if anxiety is my way of not feeling dread. Then I wonder if I had a better way of dealing with dread if I could stop it from changing to anxiety. I dread the kind of anxiety that triggers panic attacks.
I was talking to my psychiatrist about how I am a little disappointed that although I've done a good job of improving my eating over the last couple of years, I still have an awful lot of intense anxiety. I guess I was hoping eating would be a little more of a silver bullet for anxiety :) Wishful thinking. Psych says more self compassion is needed
around the anxiety instead of frustration.