Research is showing that fading vision is part of the anorexia experience.

Anorexia deteriorates the body like a fast forward of the aging process.  We now know that 17 year old girls with severe anorexia can have the fragile bones of what used to be considered a symptom of old age: osteoporosis . What my physiology professor at UCLA called "over forty eyes" when he reached for his reading glasses, is becoming noticeable in women of all ages who starve. How is your vision lately?

This story is my attempt to bring understanding to this painful, desperate and all too common experience in the life of a bulimic woman. It could be triggering.  I wrote this because articulating the extent of a bulimic episode in detail can help a woman know she can be understood and accepted. If she can feel known in her darkest hours she may experience a new sense of hope and reach for her recovery.

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 Day 8 continued You quietly let yourself in to your apartment. You run water in the bathroom to hide sound. You throw up the doughnuts. Exhausted, you collapse on the bed, fully clothed, on top of the covers and pass out.