Kym--You are definitely not alone. I'm 51 and have an ED (binge eating). I have had OCD as long as I can remember. Originally, one of its manifestations was in anorexia, something I recovered from in my early 30s by becoming a compulsive eater. (I had a transition period where I transferred some of my compulsive behavior to cigarette smoking. When I stopped that, I simply started drinking for about one year. That ended when I started binging on food. I now have a host of medical problems thanks to the binging. Those problems have been a blessing, though, since they made me pay attention to the harsh way in which I was treating my body.) A few months ago, I entered an outpatient ED clinic. I'm not totally impressed with the nutritionist and psychiatrist I've been assigned, but the psychologist is great and, so, I'm sticking to the program. So far, I've come to realize that my anxiety and depression problems have magnified my need to eat, so I'm working on those things. In addition, I am coming to terms with some old family issues that played into the depression, etc. I am far from cured as I still binge heavily. However, I am practicing new skills that shorten my binges. And, although I still check out the latest diets, I also end up talking myself out of trying them. This road is a rough one, but I am developing some good shock absorbers! Good luck to you.

S.F. I hope you get the help you need. I've come so far since writing my original comment, and I have told sooooo many more people. I got to the point where recovery was more important than worrying about what other people think. I had thought I had to save my pride by hiding my ED, but now I can look at all I've overcome and I've never been more proud of myself!!! And the people I thought would judgement me or think less of me are actually proud of me too! I'm still on my recovery journey, encountering struggles along the way, but I have no regrets getting the help I needed!! For your sake and your daughters' sake (they know when Mommy is struggling, no matter how well you think you're hiding it), I pray you find the courage to seek help......you deserve it!

I started with a therapist who knew nothing about ED's. I figured that out very quickly and requested a transfer to a specialist. I got my request (totally an act of G*d as the HMO I belong to isn't known for doing that!!) and started to see her and got into the therapy group she runs (again G*d was at work because normally there's a waiting list). After about 4 months it became obvious that I needed more so I went into IOP for 6 weeks After that I continued the therapy and therapy group. I also see a dietian and I regularly attend a local community group. I read a lot of books and recovery blogs (Joanna's was my first and continues to help me alot!!). It may seem a little much, but I really needed it at first to stay out of trouble. When temptations came, I turned to a blog, or group, or book. Now it's not a matter of life and death, but a good reminder that my recovery comes first! I've met a lot of people along their own recovery journeys and we each have our road to take; explore, trust and find what works for you! it's a hard road to take, but it's easier then life with Ed and it's so worth it!!